To Be With You - The Honeytrees*

Dear -----,

I know we decided, or at least I did, to just be friends... but I still don't think I'm going to feel comfortable initiating conversation with you. I feel like things that I say can be easily taken out of context.

That's all,

- an "old" friend

Can two people with a history ever JUST be friends? It obviously wouldn't be a platonic relationship, but do you think it's possible? I feel like there would always be that thought in the back of one side's mind thinking "Why? How is this going to work? Are we better off not talking to one another?" OR just a straight up "I miss you.".  I'd like your thoughts on this...


I'm currently watching The Real World after sleeping for five hours. I don't know how I managed to sleep that long, but I'm still tired and am thinking of heading to bed as soon as this show is over. I pvr'd it, but hey, why not watch it right now? AND since we got our new cable box I keep forgetting to add the series recordings. We have one for Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and two on Thursday. Yeah, mum and I watch a lot of television. We consider it "mother/daughter bonding time" even though we don't even talk while watching it. We're just that great.

I should get back to my show though. Head to bed shortly after.

Good Night
-kayluh

*disclaimer* The title of this post has nothing to do with it's contents, it's a song I'm listening to and I absolutely adore the singer's voice. 4srs go listen to it. I just had no idea what to choose as a title.

ooh pretty

So, while browsing forums on the embarrassing site that I have been a part of for years, I came across a photo of a couch. A few people thought it was impractical, or ugly, but I happened to LOVE it! So much that I think I am going to make one for my bedroom. My room is a light blue, curtains are sheer/white, bed set is blue/green/orange. Any suggestions on fabric choices? I was thinking of something light, maybe a small print OR orange to match my bed!? I am only picturing the couch as wide as my window, so about 5 feet long? It'd be long enough for me to lounge on, but not completely lay on. Aaahh I just want to build it right now!! The best thing is that I know how to build it! I'm so handy!!

This is the couch.

This is my bed set

And of course, the photos aren't mine... oopsie. 
If you have any suggestions or questions just leave a comment or msg/txt if you know me irl.

ALSOOOO I made a skirt today. My plan was to make two skirts, but as usual, Kayluh has been stressed out. I will post pictures another day... maybe tomorrow if I wear it?!

cheers
-kayluh

p.s. I think I'm giving up with the 30 day thing. I may continue it at a later date.

SORRY!

I forgot all about my blog!! Life has just been so busy. School, exams, random life changing events. You know how it is. Things have been really hectic for me lately, so I'm trying to get myself back on track.

I've been quite confused as well. Last night I had an odd feeling hit me and it bothered me all night. My throat swelling up didn't help either (fml@allergies/sensitivities) so waking up constantly was a big thing. I'd just lay there thinking and trying to breathe. All day it's been a thought in my head, basically "what if / what do I do / should I give up / what happens if I give up / what if I give up and regret it ?!"  For those that know me personally, fb/nex/text me and I'll give you the details because I really need advice.

I normally go to my parents for advice since they are so good at giving it, no matter the question, but I don't think they could help me with this. What I need is something they don't know anything about. Well, I imagine they do, but they haven't experienced it. I know for a fact that they haven't. And if you message me, you'll understand why.

So, I'm just going to sit around tonight... study, think, study, think. I have a Physics final tomorrow so we'll see how things go. I'm hoping that this doesn't bother me too much.

On the plus side, Thijs is back. I stayed with him last night. We went to Subway this afternoon, I felt like a loser because I had a 6" sub, he had a footlong and he was done before me. Let this be a warning to everyone... I eat very slowly and very little. It's just something I do.




Anyways, I think that's all I can really type. I'm not happy right now. :(
- kayluh

p.s. do you ever randomly feel like crying? I think tonight is going to be one of those nights. Music usually helps me balance out but I don't know... I told Thijs something relating to the second sentence of this post and it's been bothering me heaps. I wanted to just keep it in that empty spot in my mind but I also wanted to tell him in case something were to happen in the future. I don't know what would happen, but opening up to someone is usually a good thing, right? Should I have kept it to myself? I feel so vulnerable now. ugh