To Be With You - The Honeytrees*

Dear -----,

I know we decided, or at least I did, to just be friends... but I still don't think I'm going to feel comfortable initiating conversation with you. I feel like things that I say can be easily taken out of context.

That's all,

- an "old" friend

Can two people with a history ever JUST be friends? It obviously wouldn't be a platonic relationship, but do you think it's possible? I feel like there would always be that thought in the back of one side's mind thinking "Why? How is this going to work? Are we better off not talking to one another?" OR just a straight up "I miss you.".  I'd like your thoughts on this...


I'm currently watching The Real World after sleeping for five hours. I don't know how I managed to sleep that long, but I'm still tired and am thinking of heading to bed as soon as this show is over. I pvr'd it, but hey, why not watch it right now? AND since we got our new cable box I keep forgetting to add the series recordings. We have one for Sunday, Monday, Wednesday, and two on Thursday. Yeah, mum and I watch a lot of television. We consider it "mother/daughter bonding time" even though we don't even talk while watching it. We're just that great.

I should get back to my show though. Head to bed shortly after.

Good Night
-kayluh

*disclaimer* The title of this post has nothing to do with it's contents, it's a song I'm listening to and I absolutely adore the singer's voice. 4srs go listen to it. I just had no idea what to choose as a title.

ooh pretty

So, while browsing forums on the embarrassing site that I have been a part of for years, I came across a photo of a couch. A few people thought it was impractical, or ugly, but I happened to LOVE it! So much that I think I am going to make one for my bedroom. My room is a light blue, curtains are sheer/white, bed set is blue/green/orange. Any suggestions on fabric choices? I was thinking of something light, maybe a small print OR orange to match my bed!? I am only picturing the couch as wide as my window, so about 5 feet long? It'd be long enough for me to lounge on, but not completely lay on. Aaahh I just want to build it right now!! The best thing is that I know how to build it! I'm so handy!!

This is the couch.

This is my bed set

And of course, the photos aren't mine... oopsie. 
If you have any suggestions or questions just leave a comment or msg/txt if you know me irl.

ALSOOOO I made a skirt today. My plan was to make two skirts, but as usual, Kayluh has been stressed out. I will post pictures another day... maybe tomorrow if I wear it?!

cheers
-kayluh

p.s. I think I'm giving up with the 30 day thing. I may continue it at a later date.

SORRY!

I forgot all about my blog!! Life has just been so busy. School, exams, random life changing events. You know how it is. Things have been really hectic for me lately, so I'm trying to get myself back on track.

I've been quite confused as well. Last night I had an odd feeling hit me and it bothered me all night. My throat swelling up didn't help either (fml@allergies/sensitivities) so waking up constantly was a big thing. I'd just lay there thinking and trying to breathe. All day it's been a thought in my head, basically "what if / what do I do / should I give up / what happens if I give up / what if I give up and regret it ?!"  For those that know me personally, fb/nex/text me and I'll give you the details because I really need advice.

I normally go to my parents for advice since they are so good at giving it, no matter the question, but I don't think they could help me with this. What I need is something they don't know anything about. Well, I imagine they do, but they haven't experienced it. I know for a fact that they haven't. And if you message me, you'll understand why.

So, I'm just going to sit around tonight... study, think, study, think. I have a Physics final tomorrow so we'll see how things go. I'm hoping that this doesn't bother me too much.

On the plus side, Thijs is back. I stayed with him last night. We went to Subway this afternoon, I felt like a loser because I had a 6" sub, he had a footlong and he was done before me. Let this be a warning to everyone... I eat very slowly and very little. It's just something I do.




Anyways, I think that's all I can really type. I'm not happy right now. :(
- kayluh

p.s. do you ever randomly feel like crying? I think tonight is going to be one of those nights. Music usually helps me balance out but I don't know... I told Thijs something relating to the second sentence of this post and it's been bothering me heaps. I wanted to just keep it in that empty spot in my mind but I also wanted to tell him in case something were to happen in the future. I don't know what would happen, but opening up to someone is usually a good thing, right? Should I have kept it to myself? I feel so vulnerable now. ugh

WEDNESDAY IS UPON US!

It is now technically Wednesday... well 41 minutes ago it was. I have had such an odd day. Here it is in very bad point form... I woke up at 7:20, took my rollers out, changed and chilled with my mum until we left for school/work just after 8am. She dropped me off near my dad's office, I walk half way through the college to my locker to grab my binder for science. THEN I walk ALL the way across the college to my classroom. Class starts at 8:30 and I was just getting to the door at 8:25. And guess what I see?! "SC--- has been moved to A204" so then I had to walk all the way back and ended up being late for class, but I was still the second person to show up. Weird, aye?  The bad thing is that I could have easily cut some time by walking out of the science wing, walking across the pad and into A. Oh well!! 

Class was pretty uneventful, just went over the regular ecology stuff, and I realized how gross humans were as a species. yuck! Anyways, I was sitting by Debra, and we just kept whispering back and forth. OH! SHE CHOPPED HER HAIR OFF!! I was shocked! But it looks so good!! 
ANYWAAAAYS... class ended at 9:50, so her and I just went out to the tables in the hallway, chatted for a few hours (I was laughing sooo much, partly because of the text convo I was having with my e-crush) until Maths around noon. Another long class, sounds lame, right? WRONG! It was hilarious for me. I could not stop laughing and I didn't even have a reason to laugh! Time flew by, soon it was 1 and time for Debra to leave, and leave me all alone to endure English. (ugh) So, I walked her to her vehicle, we ended up talking for awhile, she asks "When does your next class start?" I grab my phone, look at it and say "haha! 20 minutes ago!" and our goodbye still took a few minutes!!!
English was horrible. Nobody WANTS to watch a horrible adaptation of The Taming Of The Shrew! I was fine with the audio last semester, but what is the point of spending $30 on a book that we aren't even going to read?! (yes, I am repeating a course /sadface) I was only in class for half an hour. whoops. So, when that was done I went to my dad's office, we hung out for a bit, then I remembered that I needed my 2202A form to do my taxes. (I was supposed to get this over a month ago!) Apparently they messed up my file and put it in the "outstanding balance" files. Ugh.

THEN, I hung out with my dad a bit longer, left, went to pick up a starter, then home. I was sooo happy to get home! (for reasons I cannot post about) The friend I was texting the entire day pretty much made my day multiple times...

Anddddd my day has been fairly repetitive since then. I've had great things and not so great things happen today. But I'm bad at explaining things (as you can read^) so that will be saved for another day... It's time for my DAY NINE post!!!


cheers
-kayluh

p.s. I just made a lip plumping gloss and hoooly smokes, my lips are HUGE! I don't know if I like it. I'm so used to my little lips! I may post a photo in the morning. AND I may or may not sleep in... /shiftyeyes

DAY 8: A PICTURE OF YOU AND SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU SMILE

So, I kind of planned this one on Day 2... but I didn't plan on what to write, so I'm just going to write whatever comes to mind, that IS the point of a blog, right?

This is Thijs and I... on skype, because we do not have any pictures of us together. That will be fixed when he's on day off. *winkwink*

 Maybe not the greatest photo, but it works! He makes me smile ALL of the time. So much that my cheeks end up hurting. I think he may rival my mum who actually makes me smile by saying "smile". He's a weird guy, but totally awesome nonetheless.

And a small story...
I was babysitting two little kids, Madison and Coby. Coby is pretty neat, but he's at that question stage...
Coby: Kayluh, why are you babysitting us but only sitting on the couch? can you pleeeaaase come watch me play my wii?
Me: I'm babysitting you guys and am sitting on the couch because I'm tired.
Coby (sees me texting): Who are you texting?
Me: Thijs
Coby: Are you guys married yet? You've been dating him forever! If you haven't been married yet can I be your ring boy? Madison can be the flower girl, right?
Me: No, Coby, we're not married.
Coby: Why not?! (starts tearing up)
Me: I'm too young to be married! That's for the big adults, not 19 year olds
Coby: But you ARE a big adult! You're tall and pretty and you have nice hair and a nice smile. GET MARRIED!! PLEEEEAAASSSEEEEE

DAY 7: A PICTURE OF YOUR MOST TREASURED ITEM

Any guesses on what the body looks like?

This picture wasn't entirely on purpose. I was messing around with my phone to see how close I could get while still being in focus. And this was half the width of my phone, since I had it resting on the 12th. AAANNDD I was too lazy to take a new picture, because that means cleaning it, making it shiny and trimming the excess string on top.

It does not have a name. I do not name my things, and never will. ugh. drives me nuts when people do that!

DAY 6: A PICTURE OF SOMEONE YOU'D LOVE TO TRADE PLACES WITH FOR THE DAY

I honestly don't know who I'd trade places with...

I'm fine with being me. So I'm cheating and won't be posting a picture.